Friday, December 28, 2012

"two-oh-one-two, you know you want to be one too"

{one of our class sayings}

now that the the year is finally coming to a close, i find myself both feeling a great sigh of relief, and also joyously shouting {inside, of course} a great hooray!
the other day i told my mom that this year was by far my worst year ever.
with one look from her, i suddenly knew that by simply calling it the worst year ever,
i was acknowledging the fact that this year was truly the opposite.
i quickly changed my assumption to:
this was the most challenging // difficult // rewarding // prosperous // god ordained
year...ever.
seriously. 

butttttt, you could not pay me to do it all over. no way jose!

anyhoo, i'm going to do a little recap because i used to do this in my personal journals
so that i could look back and see what all had changed.
{click on the yellows to go back and see}



january: this month was a blur. seriously. i only remember bits and pieces, and honestly, they're not the prettiest bits and pieces. but i began to realize so much in this month. i really did. it was during this month that i knew that this was going to be one long year.

february: i toured fox on the seventeenth of this month! little did i know then what this school would have in store for me ;) 
i also lost some of my closest of friends this month. i miss them all dearly, but it taught me that some friends are temporary, but no less important.
oh, and i had my first valentine...a hand drawn rose on my car. i'm looking forward to this coming february :)

march: i faced some pretty grown up decisions here. relationships, college decisions, god decisions...it was quite the month.

april: i turned eighteen and celebrated by going bowling with some of my best of friends! 
on my actual birthday was easter sunday so we celebrated with my favorite family {the macphails} with an after-church-lunch at el jardines in san juan bautista {love love love}.
and then a week later, my mom hosted a "speak your name" at out house. it was a beautiful brunch with some beautiful, influential ladies who spoke wisdom into my life.

may: was a blur! with finals, graduation practice, prom, magic mountain grad night, graduation/gradnight, graduation parties, and all of the preparations that go along, it is safe to say that may was one of my most memorable months ever, and it went so fast that i get nostalgic just talking about it!!!
p.s. i also started blogging during this month!

june: i worked as a nanny, and also attended genesis where i signed up for my first college classes!
{it's crazy to think that i completed AND passed each of those}

july: fourth of july was spent in santa cruz with my closest of friends. it was an INSANE day. never go to the beach on the fourth unless you are prepared for the traffic, crowds, and hot sun.
i loved it. every minute of it.
and i love those summer nights spent at the board walk.
once we returned home that night we all walked to the levy and watched the fireworks there.
it was a fantastic month, and it marked the end of my full stay at my home...from now on, i will always be headed somewhere else after being home.
oh, and i went HERE for my uncle's birthday. sooo fun.

august: uhm...i moved AWAY...OUT of state...to attend COLLEGE. my goodness was this month a major time in my life forever!
i also met some of the most wonderful people during this time. 
i still can't believe that i did it. that i had the guts to move away. 
i give myself a pat on the back for that one ;)
and, we cannot forget, little fred was born! so so so cute.
andddd, my poor wisdom teeth, they got yanked. ew! 
oh! and i had some fun with them...

september: my first full month at college.
i met a really great guy... :)
i participated in serve day which was an awesome way for me to adjust to the community around me.
and the month pretty much just flew by.

october: i got to FINALLY see my family.
i stayed in for halloween...study, study.
i went to my first oregon museum
i went to the pumpkin patch!
and i got my first taste of homesickness.

november: JULIA CAME TO VISIT...and...
i came home! i cannot tell you how happy i was so see a giants fan in the airport!
thanksgiving was...interesting. oh, the holidays with my family ;)
oh, and this little thing happened...my dream kind of came true...no big deal...i got chosen to go to..uhm..ROMANIA. hello, amazing. i am so thrilled, i am still pinching myself about it.

december: HERE WE ARE. and i've come SO FAR. sooo cheesy, but soooo true.
let's not and say we'd do this year allllll over again ;)


hooray for twenty-thirteen! it is soooo going to be my year!

;) 
xoxo



Tuesday, December 25, 2012

and it all began with just a baby...

...who would go on and change the world forever.

"In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world...And everyone went to his town to register. So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, 'Do not be afraid, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.'
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying:

'Glory to God in the highest
and on earth peace to men on 
whom his favor rests.'

When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, 'Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.'
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told to them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. But Mary treasured these things and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told."
Luke 2:1-20

My family spent the day very low key. Mom and I decided to go to the movies and see Les Miserables.
It was a fantastic movie. I seriously cannot stop thinking about how amazing it was.
Anyhoo, part way through the movie, I remembered that it was Christmas day, and the meaning of this day hit me really hard. Perhaps it was the effects of goodness and forgiveness that resonate within the film, but I was very much reminded that those two themes originate solely from one infant on this very day, two thousand or so years ago.
I think that the story Victor Hugo told is a wonderful one,
but then I think about the story each and everyone of us are invited to live within,
and it is so much greater a tale, with so much goodness and so much forgiveness,
that it cannot possibly be contained in just one single day as December 25th.
I have always been intrigued with the relationship authors create and lead with their 
characters. And then I also remembered that I am indeed a character in the great story
of the greatest Author to ever be. And He strives after a relationship with me, just as Victor Hugo 
created one with Jean Valjean, and just as Jean Valjean sought after a relationship with
Cosette.

I grew up always knowing the story of His birth. But, I honestly believe that a reflection upon it each and everyday is something I should try to remember. Because I definitely forget what is most important in life all of the time. I know that in just a few weeks I will be caught up in the stresses of college and life just like everyone else. 
But for this moment, I would like to whole heartedly wish a very happy birthday to the source of unyielding forgiveness and undying love.

Happy birthday, Jesus. I love you.




p.s.
on a lighter, more blogger-ish note, eddie and i would like to wish all of you a very 
merry christmas



Sunday, December 23, 2012

IS IT CHRISTMAS YET?!

almost!
but...
NO.

click the "no"
it made me laugh.

happy christmas season, everyone.

little date.

J and i had a "little date" today.
we miss one another.
so we decided to play the board game life.
we both own it, so we each used our own boards and put 
our computers in front of us.
it was fun.
i like him.
and playing games.
and that it's christmas.

hooray!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

honestly.

honestly, christmas is coming much too quickly for my liking. can we slooooow this whole thing down? please.

honestly, i have a cute diy saved to my drafts but i am too lazy to finish taking the pictures for it.

honestly, i feel like taking a blogging break for a bit. but i love it on here too much.

honestly, gossip girl is taking up too much valuable reading time. two a.m? i should be sleeping.

honestly, i just found out that spring semester is over on the 26th of april...if that is true, i am thee happiest girl. for reals this time.

honestly, i was bombarded with a lot of hurtful things last weekend. and it still hurts. but tomorrow is going to be beautiful anyways. and the day after that. and the day after that.

honestly, saying i like you is going to become my most favorite saying.

honestly, my favorite part about christmas is not only the anticipation, but watching the expressions of loved ones when they open gifts that i give them.

honestly, mother nature better hold off on the rain storms tomorrow...i've missed my san francisco and prefer it to be beautiful tomorrow.

honestly, i am so excited for my facetime date tomorrow...we're going to play board games. :)

honestly, two thousand and thirteen is going to be my year. you just watch!

honestly, i'm digging the whole sweater/collar, peter pan necklace look. really.

honestly, i miss my hob girls. i do, i do.

honestly, i'm about to go crawl in bed with my mom and dad. because after a long semester away from home as an "adult", feeling like a little kid is the best feeling. ever.

Monday, December 17, 2012

home.

coming home to my family has been wonderful. i had forgotten just how worn in home really is. i fit right into my old routine as if the past four months away never even happened. 
so far i have had a doughnut run with ethan and julia,
three or four target runs,
i have been christmas shopping,
attended sunday morning church,
seen the triplets {given lots of hugs & kisses},
made a gift,
watched way too much gossip girl in bed,
unpacked all of my belongings and moved right on in,
will start nannying today!
{hooray}

yes, i cannot say it enough...
i missed you california. 
i really did.

and, i'm hoping to have some fun-holiday-ish posts up on the blog!
maybe even an outfit post!
but we'll see, this coming week is already crazy busy,
and then, what do you know,
it will be 

christmas.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

c h a r a c t e r .

i'm learning about it
i'm all about it.
and being home has been wonderful.





happiest of holidays to you all!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

whose house? g's house!

so as i'm sitting here listening to pandora, attempting to finish studying for my
last final, a song comes on.

and what song is it?

one day.


my graduation song.
i love how i'm coming home tomorrow.
since this song came on i am beyond nostalgic.
graduation was one of the best days ever.

just writing to say i love you, ghs class of two thousand and twelve.

{high school posts here here}


one more day!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

hooray!

i may have finished my old testament literature final in twenty minutes...

...twenty.

i am one happy girl over here.
now, if only i could take the rest of my finals
today and tomorrow...
then i could go back home.

{hooray}

Monday, December 10, 2012

hello, from ally and i.

these are some silly pictures from the weekend.
& this post is me procrastinating.

three more days.


i think...

that i think way too much.

that finals should be illegal.

that sleep should come easy.

that my math problems should solve themselves.

that gossip girl and pinterest combined is deadly to study time.

that the moment i get to sit in barnes and read and write will be a glorious one.

that every puddle on my way to class should be splashed in.

that cupcakes should be eaten like carrots.

that i should read jane eyre again because i've just been in a mood for a rochester...
...or maybe i just need some jane austin because i'm really in the mood for a mr. darcy.

that i might sleep for an eternity, come saturday.

that mumford & sons is excellent background music during a study session.

that if i don't get out of bed right now, i will have to be "fashionably late" to my study group.

that ice cream is just fantastic right out of the carton.

that one bowl of cereal is never enough.

that the laundry strewn about my bed needs to be put away...and properly.

that i really miss making lists like this. like, a lot.



Saturday, December 8, 2012

i went to a national park today.

and it was really beautiful and peaceful.
now, i can here one of the girls playing
frank sinatra christmas songs.
and they remind me of home.

with finals and life, i have so much going through my head that i could burst.
i miss my friend and my home.
coming home for christmas makes me feel old,
though i walk around campus always feeling out of place-
that i look like i'm twelve compared to all of the twenty-somethings.
all other christmases i felt like such a little kid,
but this year i actually feel a bit like an adult.
it's very bitter sweet.
but,
flying home for the holidays is how i always pictured the holidays.
this time of year is so magical. 
i just love it.
;)


Friday, December 7, 2012

yes, there is a boy on my blog.

we had ice cream cones tonight.
we loooove sweets like ice cream.
they're our favorite.
& being silly is our favorite, too.


the end.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

ten things & some pictures, too.


one: coloring.
two: little dogs, like daisy up above.
three: lists.
four: the above bible verse.
five: cold, sunny days.
six: a christmas carol {hooray}
seven: tea from coffee cat.
eight: salt water taffy.
nine: peanut butter with anything & everything.
ten: packing {for california}

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

such a wonderful song.


December 5th, 2012.

So much has changed in three years.
To say that my life has changed in ways I never
imagined would be an understatement.
It's funny to look back at moments that are so vividly ingrained
in your mind and then realize that you've come to stand so far apart from all of it
I don't believe that days such as this should necessarily be sad ones, but instead days of
reflection and love and faith. In spite of everything and everyone, I think that faith and love
at the end of the day are what keep us all going.
"Younger now, than we were before."

xoxo




Tuesday, December 4, 2012

becoming honest.

i haven't had a whole lot of time to be on here {sorry},
and, honestly, as i get more and more readers, it becomes a bit 
more difficult for me to feel so honest on here.
not that i'm going to lie or anything like that!
but i mean being honest about how i feel and how my days are.

i think that so many people feel that popular bloggers portray a seemingly perfect life.
but i can totally see how they only post so much good, not only to maintain a positive 
blogging atmosphere, but because they don't want all of their personal business displayed
on the internet 

so, here i am. nowhere near those types of bloggers and yet learning that some sort
of guard must exist on here.
i'm a writer. as i always say.
and i am so protective over my work,
just as i am protective over this blog.
and if i am going to be perfectly honest right now,
i'd like to say that i have been struggling with writing lately.
not just here on the blog, but on my personal writings as well.

i wouldn't call it writer's block,
but instead it's like a block within me and my creativity.
when i write often and keep my imagination going about ideas
it's one of the best feelings in the world.
i actually used to get into trouble in class for reading and writing.
but if i had an idea and i didn't get to a pen and paper fast enough then
i would completely lose focus because all i wanted to do was get that idea out
and onto paper where, in my eyes, it is safe.

i don't know. i pretty much have word vomit today
{great imagery, right?}
it's just that today has been rough for a few reasons and i feel like i'm trying to hold 
it all together but with no one to really talk to, not even a blank sheet of paper.

however, i am doing better with my words on here than i am verbally.
i suppose i just feel as though i have so much to be thankful for, especially recently,
that having such a bad day seems silly and petty.
nevertheless, i am human and bad days happen, and not being able to express that is a 
bit frustrating.

i think all i need is a kind ear, some wise words, a cup of tea, and some bible reading time.
they've all solved things before, you know.

ten days.

and i'm home for one month.
i can't wait for all of my walks.



Saturday, December 1, 2012

my mom says

that i haven't blogged enough lately.
truth is, i know i haven't.
life has been crazy busy, and so unfortunately the blog has taken the back seat these past
couple of weeks. fortunately, i will be back home soon and i'm hoping that many adventures
await me.

oregon is beautiful today...and i say this because 
blue skies have taken up more space than they usually do.
i just want to lay out in the sun because i think today is so pretty.

anyhoo, i'm going to the mall today {ha-lle-lu-jah!} and when i come
back i will have three papers and homework and a project waiting on me.
just typical college, no big deal!


oh, so you know how ellen is one of my favorite shows to watch?
well, it is.
i can't wait to have television back in a couple of weeks.
i thought i'd share a clip from one of my most favorite episodes.
i just love little sophia grace and rosie! they are adorable 

xoxo