Wednesday, September 28, 2016

My day with Julia

Married at 22

{though there's more to the story than just that...}

I've talked about this friend numerous times on this blog. I've told our infamous story of how she chose me, and I tried to run the other way because I was mean and irritable. How I owe my friendship primarily to her efforts and her grace. 

We have a plethora of stories -- some hilarious, some unbelievable, others full of sorrow...but all so very good.

I move to Los Angeles this weekend and she says "I do" in a little over two weeks from now. I am by no means a professional photographer. I'm just a girl with a Nikon that she can't quite figure out. However, there was this little tug in me -- an idea that I should capture this time in life. I shooed the idea away because I'm not camera savvy and I don't own any fancy equipment. 

Though as my move and her wedding date neared, I swallowed my pride, asked her to choose an outfit or two that make her feel beautiful {even though she can somehow manage to look like a babe in anything}, and we set a date to snap some photos. The only thing I didn't tell her prior was that I was going to come into the afternoon with questions. 

Again, I'm no photographer, but I love documentation. This season of life is special for the two of us in our own lives. She's already had moments of this season captured, and there will be someone snapping away during the best day of my friend's life...but on this day -- this random, little Tuesday -- I was the one doing the documentation as a means of preserving what our friendship looks like before everything changes for the even better -- her, front and center making a beautiful vow; me, behind a camera with a pen, in all of my curiosity and newness. 

Here are the questions and more photos from our day:

Julia, how long have you been engaged and how many more days until you say "I do"?

I've been engaged for over 9 months. That's all I know. Haha! And I'm getting married in...I think 19 days. Ah -- that's so weird!...18. I thought it was 19. I just told someone it was 19. That was yesterday. You can quote me! 

What has been your favorite part(s) about being engaged?

Ohhh -- the promise. That it's a promise. Getting engaged was like seeing God's promise come to life. Just being engaged is like tangible hope.

What are some things you're most excited for once you are married?

OH!! I have to be careful because this is going on the Internet! Hmm...I'm excited to do everyday life together. I'm excited to work toward each other's dreams and goals together. And to cast vision for our future together. And, to play together and have fun together. To serve one another. I think that sums it all up.

You're getting married young {by society's standards}, but what do you believe are the benefits of marrying in one's early 20's?

I think you haven't created habits...when you're older you're more set in your ways. When you're younger you're more adaptable and moldable so that you can grow together and mold together. When you're younger you might be more open to compromising and meeting half way. Also, you have energy. You get to grow up with that person.

What are three words that describe you?

Ooooooh wow, that's a fun one! I would say...This is cliche, but joy, thoughtful, and faithful.

What piece(s) of clothing make(s) you feel most beautiful?
Dresses and all black. Yeah, all black makes me feel really good!

You love make-up {and it's such a huge talent of yours!!}, what are some of your favorite brands and why?

Make Up For Ever because the quality of the products is outstanding. Bare Minerals because it's natural {ingredients}, but it's still high-quality, and I fell like anyone of all ages can wear it. Urban Decay because the products are just really good. What else do I use a lot of? Yeah -- I would say these three are my favorites! 

Where are some of your favorite places to shop and why?

Forever 21 because it's cheap and I can always find something! I can find things that look expensive but are actually inexpensive. That's where I get most of my clothes! I actually have quite a few things from Pac Sun now. I like them because I feel like they are becoming more trendy. And then Cotton On because it is cheap and I find good basic pieces. 

You're about to move into your very first apartment! What are some of your favorite home/furniture/decorative pieces so far? 

I love our cutting board -- it's a wood one! And I just feel like it's both of our style. It just looks pretty on my counter. We also have these little pink elephant measuring cups that look like Anime characters. I love our dresser! It's simple and white and makes me feel calm. Oh! And our white dishes that we were given. They look really clean and make me feel refreshed. I like white, I'm discovering. It makes me feel...*and she takes a deep breath in and out

{elephant measuring cups are from Francesca's -- similar can be found here}

How would you describe your desired home aesthetic? 

I would say...Modern, comfortable...We have touches of wood so I don't want to say rustic. But, modern, comfortable, cozy

What is your favorite color?

Black, cream, white, nude, and pink. Haha! And olive green! I love olive green! Oh! And taupe! Oh! And grey! I'm sorry. I like neutrals but then I like pink and olive green, too, so...

 {Tea Kettle can be found at Crate and Barrel}

This morning you could be heard listening to ______ while getting ready.

Faithful Till the End by Paul and Hannah McClure!

Best advice you've ever been given:

Be yourself. Be who God made you to be. And, stay in your own lane! That all goes together!

If you could only bring 3 things to a deserted island, what would they be?

Justin! {Fiance}, a canopy bed, a picnic basket full of food, and a laptop that magically has Internet. Yeah -- four things would be so good!

Dream vacation destination?

Paris...I also want to go to New Zealand but that's both of our's {her and her fiance's}. I also want to go to Barcelona after Paris. And Monaco. But Paris is the main one!

Guilty pleasure?

Probably Pretty Little Liars, and ice cream...and cheese burgers. 

The one thing you wish you could tell your 14 year old self about love?

Ohhh gosh! I would have told myself to ask God what he wanted for me in my future husband. And then to really, really think of actual qualities that I would want. To not waste my time having any sort of feelings for a boy who didn't have those qualities, and-- most importantly--didn't love to Lord. And, to not waste my time with stupid little crushes because they are irrelevant. 

If you could have food delivered to your house at 10pm what would you order?

Probably's cliche but we love burgers!


Thank you so, so, so much, Julia for allowing me to capture this moment! I wish you and your {almost} husband all the joy and adventure and grace throughout your life together!


Friday, September 9, 2016

top ten {but actually twelve} films i love --

As someone who loves film, I really love the question:
what are your top favorite films? 
which film do you recommend?

However, I also cringe at either of these questions because--though
I find myself over the moon about someone wanting to talk film with me--
my mind goes absolutely blank. 

Suddenly any and all film vocabulary goes out the door and I feel like an idiot 
with nothing to say.

But, since no one is asking me either of these questions, I know exactly how to reply...

Okay, so perhaps I don't -- but that's because I love so many films! 

I don't know how I'll narrow it down...some of these have been on my list of tops
for years...others will surely make their way onto it as the years continue to pass...

For now, I'm going to compile a list of what I absolutely love -- some of which I'll let you
know are the films that I will always always always admire and return to without fail.


{In no particular order}

the top five six i will return to without fail:

1. Close Up - Abbas Kiarostami
2. The Tree of Life - Terrence Malick
3. The Darjeeling Limited - Wes Anderson
4. Little Miss Sunshine - Jonathan Dayton & Valerie Faris
{Tied for fifth!}
5. Rabbit Hole - John Cameron Mitchell // The Seventh Seal - Ingmar Bergman

five six other films i can watch over & over & can't/won't get over:

7. Jaws - Steven Spielberg
8. Sunset Blvd. - Billy Wilder
9. Ex Machina - Alex Garland
 10. A Clockwork Orange - Stanley Kubrick
11. The Grand Budapest Hotel - Wes Anderson
 12. Everybody Wants Some!! - Richard Linklater


I gave myself about a week's time to think about each film, and why they mean something to me. They're all so unique from one another, yet what loving a film ultimately comes down to for me is plot and character development. Over time, I hope to elaborate on each one here on the blog just as a way of having a conversation about a topic/passion I could talk endlessly about. 

Stay tuned!



++links for images:
tree of life 
close up 
little miss sunshine
the darjeeling limited
rabbit hole
the seventh seal
ex machina
sunset blvd.
a clockwork orange
everybody wants some!!

Thursday, September 8, 2016

style series inspiration // women who wear -- chloe sevigny

Be warned -- in this post I go Chloe crazy!

a quote that turned into a letter for a friend:

"Hold on to your hope. As your triumph unfolds, he's never failing."
-Kristine DeMarco

I have a friend who knows what to say and when to say it.
While she'll say she's got her source -- I'll agree, though I still believe
she was made to have perfect timing all her own.

My friend has supported me since the eighth grade when--on my first day of school--she saw me coming her way (she knew of me because my mom had been her Spanish teacher, and she was excited to not be so alone at a public school that she was also relatively new to).

I will never forget walking towards this girl--I also knew of, but didn't know well--who was jumping up and down, grinning from ear to ear, just ecstatic to have me around.
She was beaming, and I was shell-shocked from her joy -- the cloud and pure sunshine.

The rest is sort of history.

We went through the type of shit that people go through that either makes or breaks a friendship. A lot of it stuff that most teenagers don't go through.

Our friendship has nearly been broken on a handful of occasions, mostly as a result of my mistakes and my own hurt. But my friend is full of unwarranted grace towards others, and that is why she continues to support me -- and send much needed quotes and messages even when she doesn't know for a fact that I am in need of some words. 

She is without a doubt one of my biggest supporters for going to LA and pursuing my writing career. She's also someone who willingly/happily watches the films that I want to watch -- which is basically one of my few love languages. 

Last Thursday she watched The Tree of Life with me and let me re-cap on my senior thesis ideas in regards to it. AND SHE LISTENED. So, she's a keeper for life.

To my friend -- even if none of it comes true, even if some of it comes true -- or, crazily enough, if it all indeed does come true...Our minds will be blown together, and I'll owe you one big thank you for any and all of it. 

Good tears or bad tears, triumphs and failures, you with your ring and me with whatever trophy I garner -- we'll share it because you cared from the very beginning, and life had great timing for us.

The one thing I know will keep me sane, probably for the rest of my life, is the whispered idea that at the end of the day, my triumphs and failures are already known to someone much bigger than I. It excites me to think that if I could just let go of my own agenda for a second, I could definitely be on track toward a triumph far greater than any plan I could ever construe. 

Thanks for holding on with me, friend.


Monday, September 5, 2016

a wise quote by einstein

“I live in that solitude which is painful in youth but delicious in the years of maturity.”


I've been reading blog posts about apartment living -- both with roommates and living alone. I've been reading posts about independence, solitude, loneliness, and even interior design...

There is potential for some good news in the coming week, but I'm guarded
about it all because I'm scared that either the opportunity will fall through, or that it will work out and I will be faced with a great deal of change -- which is thrilling and frightening.

When I saw Einstein's quote on this post, I held tightly to the idea that someday I'll have obstacles greater than the continuous obstacle of isolation, loneliness and solitude that my youth has so eagerly presented me with -- especially throughout my various living situations.

I'm hopeful that making a new, little, home for myself in this quiet post-grad life will be a truly beautiful thing.